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Blinding sunlight pouring in through the stillness of thought
Caught deep in your eyes they glisten like morning dew
I watched as you floated to me through seas of blisters and razor wire
For fledgling we will be in the presence of God soon
Even with my last breath I’ll apologize for dying because she’s my lifeline and I’m her terminal case
Will you be here for me when I wake
Dreaming I find myself safe in your arms
Im reminded of the place I once called home
Breaths falling short hands longing close
I’m home again
The windows down and a cold november breeze takes your place
60 feet til the most certain you’ve ever been
The wind never felt so good
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Ill search this salty earth for years until my legs give out
Or until you give into my arms
you promised I could live like this forever but the winter came and no one spoke
This is a new sadness I’m feeling
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IDGAF
02:31
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Memories so fragile fading away with time
I’m nailed to this adult sized bed kneeling at your feet
Begging for forgiveness again
I cry out to you every night in the sharp chord of desperation
Can’t get this feeling outside of my head
You’re alone at sea and i’m stuck here with my friends writing to you
Suffocate me with everything you’re too scared to say
Show me all your pain
Can’t get this feeling outside of my head
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Brand New Shoes
02:47
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You’re too far away to remember your face
And it feels, and it feels, like something I replaced
I wish you could stay for another day
So I could feel, so I could feel safe
I hope you feel better
Than you did
Yesterday
I hope you feel better
Than you did
Yesterday
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No Way…
02:23
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How could I reach for you when you’re already on your way
And how could I be for you when you never even though of me
I love you but you never say you’re sorry
I hate you but I still look forward to putting your hand in mine
I love you but you never look at me when you say goodbye
Why do I think of you
When you never really cared for me
So why should I be for you
When I only ever needed me
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One step forward two steps back
Falling over myself
Why do you walk alone at night
You know they long to have you close
The way I do
The way I have for the entirety of my lifetime
I think I’ll wait here forever
Locked and loaded heart in hand
Yesterday I drove by your house. I pictured the inside furnished with all of the things we’ve collected over the years. I imagine we’re old and withered and beautiful, together. In the time I spent thinking about the what ifs I could’ve grown you a garden. With everything you’ve ever wanted.
(Why do you walk alone
You know they long to have you close)
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Tread on steady waters
Lost here I’m all alone
With no one to hold but myself
Nothings forever set in stone
Feel how I felt in the moment of everything and nothing. Sex ruins everything about all the crossover potential we see in each other. I hate to bring up the fatal truth in a moment of grief. Do you feel anything in the arms you lay in at night? I couldn’t fully explain it to you even if I wanted to, the feeling of everything and nothing all at once. Heavy burdened and bruised on all the spots you love to take care of when you’re alone I see it in your eyes. You see it in me and I see it in you and we will wrestle in the morning again and roll over to cry for the second time this month. Words pin me down to this adult sized bed. Held by my mom instead in my mind to put the stomach feeling at ease.
Feel what I felt in the moment of it all
Oh my god
Sex ruins everything about us
Oh my god
feel what I felt
In the moment of it all
Swallowed by the guilt that covers these wall
In the end you’re the one who’s alone in it all
Flawed in and out why can’t I let go
Sex ruins everything about us
Feel what I felt
In the moment of it all
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Interlude
01:02
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Drowning in the most profound of ways
In troubled waters I sink
I fear it’ll never get better than this
Oh to live your life
The weight of seatbelts in my chest
the sound of bricks through glass
To see such pretty limbs
To taste you every day
Oh to live your life
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